My body has plotted an uprising against me

So it's taken me far too long to write a recent post.
My pain has been going up and up and lasting longer. Along with it my brain fog has been horrific, finding it difficult to concentrate is an understatement.
Then there's the endless fertility appointments and tests I've been having.
I'm so grateful to have such lovely nurses keeping an eye on me.
I have a cyst in my right ovary yet again, causing me a ridiculous amount of pain.
It feels like my ovaries are stuck in awkward positions again. It feels like a sickening pulling feeling whenever I move.
Last month I had an ultrasound to check my follicles and it showed the cyst. Its not the biggest I've had but its not great. I ended up going to the doctors for an emergency appointment the next day as I was worried it may be an appendicitis instead as I've had a grumbling appendicitis before. That is the only time my pain around that area has matched that, during ovulation.
Before even though my pain was constant it was always worse just before and during my period.
My pain being more intense during ovulation is new and feels different to my PMS pain.
I'm currently only taking 900mg of aspirin for pain relief which barely does anything. But due to fertility treatment and my low ovarian count. I've tried to keep my body as clean and healthy as possible.

My ovaries currently feel fit to burst.

Natasha. X

Endometriosis and Infertility

I was 23 when I found out I had endometriosis and that was the first time anyone mentioned the possibility of infertility to me. By the time I had my excision surgery I had not long turned 24, afterwards I was told the best time to try for a baby was the next 6 months. It was only 4 months after, I had my follow up with the specialist and she told me even with having had the surgery being that it was so advanced it wasn’t very likely that I’d have gotten pregnant naturally anyway. I could not believe it, I was only 24 and being told I would need help to have children. I felt like a failure my body wouldn’t do the one thing it was made to do. I had obviously heard about infertility before but always thought of women in there late 30s not someone in their mid-twenties. Everyone else my age had no problem having children, so why is it that the one thing I’d always wanted seemed so hard for me. I was referred to the infertility clinic rather quickly, my husband and I had our initial consult. We both had to have a number of blood tests and I had to have a scan to check the number of follicles I have left. It showed I have a lot less follicles than I should for a woman of my age, which is concerning because we as women cannot produce more. I was put on the mini pill to stop my menstrual cycle which was also in hope to prevent or lessen further pain. IVF was suggested as the best option, in a woman under 35 the success rate is 32% but given my condition I was told it would lower the success rate further. But it may have more chance of working if we used donor eggs. That thought terrified me, that I would go through so much to even attempt getting pregnant and then the chances of it taking were very slim. I not only felt sad for myself but sad that I may never give my husband our own child. It’s very difficult to come to terms with and to think if you do have a child either using someone else’s eggs or adopting. You would never look at that child and see a mini version of the two of you. Or the possibility that I could be robbed of carrying a child and experiencing that part of the journey and feeling a bond only created through sharing 9 months as one. Infertility is a long and hard road that seems like its never going to end. It is not something I would have ever imagined having to worry about at the age of 25. 

Infertility in young people is more common than people realise.

In order to start treatment I have to loose a minimum of 8 lbs to bring my BMI down to NHS guidelines.

A site I am finding very helpful is

ivfbabble.com

They are not only raising awareness about infertility but allowing women going through the same thing to connect and share their stories.

They have created this cute little pin to raise awareness and show support for infertility with profits being donated to Fertility Network.